PPP2 Evaluation

In the PPP2 module we have to engage with the professionals working in the creative industry, market ourselves and develop our personal interest as an artist. Although it is simple and straightforward, it is the most challenging to me because I keep on delaying PPP work until the last minute. Time management is rather non-existent and I think I did poorly in this module. Most of the blog posts are done a few days before the deadline. I have no passion to get in contact with professional creatives. In conclusion, I actually have underestimated the PPP module, and so I did not benefit anything throughout the year when it comes to trying to get to know more about the industry. I did not benefit on the Professional side of things. Despite all these grim outlook to my engagement with people working in the animation industry, I feel that I have grow as an animator by the end of the year. I have a more distinct interest than last year, and I definitely have clearer definition of the things that I want to pursue in the future.

What goes wrong in this module is my fear to interact with strangers of higher social standing to myself. I always have a preconception that they are always busy and they are not the most humble person to talk to university students unless they are old enough to have free time to look at all the messages. Moreover, I did not know how to make connections in the creative industry in the UK as I found the norm of getting in contact with strangers here is awkward and not an easy thing for me. So, I keep on telling myself that all the emails that I sent to professionals are pointless because of this negative preconceptions, and this takes its toll at the end of the PPP module. I do not feel fulfilled towards the end of PPP because I did not push myself enough to overcome this fear to talk to new people. Professional work has been quite traumatising for me as well with the bridezilla incident. My self-esteem have been at its lowest point and gives a reason why I am reluctant to get out of my comfort zone. Studio Brief 3 is no better for me. My group consist of people who just want to get PPP out of the away instead of being passionate about marketing themselves in the real world. Their expectation does not match up to mine whose ambition is to make a real collective with like-minded people. I would not lie that PPP this year has been hell for me. Hopefully, I will be able to overcome this toxic attitudes towards my professional practice in the future.

In terms of animating skills and work ethics towards projects I feel confident this year. I tried to better myself by keeping the SWOT analysis as a reference point. From where I stand I have seen a lot of improvement in drawing skill while still keeping the flat aesthetic of my drawing. I am accepting my weaknesses of not being able to draw solid forms and make the style of my animation deliberately flat and stylised like that of modern cartoons. I am drawn towards experimentation with the consideration of shapes, textures and colours within the screen composition rather than the classical realistic type of animation (like that of Disney). In the future, I want to develop my creative practice towards this direction.

To sum up, I am unmotivated since the PPP started because it involves going out of my comfort zone and I started to get to work a week before hand in. I do not feel that I have accomplished anything in this module in terms of Professional Practice. We also failed to pitch our collective idea for Life’s a Pitch with the lack of passion. I made a lot of mistakes for PPP, and I think it is the worst module of the year because I cannot bring myself to step out of my comfort zone throughout the running time of the module.